Monday, November 19, 2007

bloodyhell.
okay.
right now.
i've seriouslyhave to learn selfcontrol.

or i'm gonna have ta let it out somewhere.
before i throw up on someone instead.

damnit.
the Mothership is back to usual.
thanks alot.
i thought she understood more about me.
after all these years.
conclusion. no she doesnt.
how sad.
its Alright.
it doesnt matter.
i didnt set my hopes high anyway.
i knew it will turn around and stab me in the back.

Okayy.
Everything still has to go on.
and there'll be more complaints.
hey.if i cant rant it here.
where else right.

ahaa.


no matter what.
i've set my mind on finding my own
fun and time for laughter amidst it all.

i just cant believe its back to norm.
just when i was on the verge of believing.

sounds like a punishment from God.
for having too much freedom.
hello.for only a year after shit.
now its back to shit.

okay. like i said.
Good things dont last.
precisely why it Was good.

i've had my fill.
now i'll wait till i'm 21.
its not too long.

she's still the in charge.
it doesnt matter anymore.
i wont bother to pick or start a fight.
it was childish and make things worst.
now feign ignorance.
AHAHAHAHAHAAA.
how great. Not.

okay. back to my reports.
i'm home from lablesson this morn to
completemy reports
no time to do it yest was working.

and she blabbered.
okay. so i rant.
back to papers and readings.

tonight i'll be back.
muahaa.


i've yet to face my worst nightmare.
what an understatement.
i will force myself to believe that there's better
things ahead.
now i'm hating it.
sometimes things are better suppressed.
it will apear horrid on the surface.